Talk About Obsessive!

I have finished writing all 30 workouts for my 30 day HIIT challenge! They mostly fall in the 40 minute range with a 15 second rest between exercises. I am not sure if I am going to stick with a 15 second rest, a 10 second rest is traditional. When working in a small space it is impossible to set everything up in advance, it just gets in the way so I have to take things out and put them back in that time window which is a pain. Some exercises are easy to transition between but others require you to get up and down and switch out equipment. I don’t want the rest to be so long that the heart rate goes down but at the same time I hate when I am late to start or have to pause/rewind the video. The first 10 days are 30 second intervals, the 2nd 10 days are 40 second intervals, the final 10 days are 50 second intervals.

Sam has also finished creating a simple HIIT timer. I still have to test out the workouts to see if they are manageable. It is not easy to gauge the difficulty of a workout on paper. It will take several months to test them all out. I may actually film them as I do them and forego rehearsals altogether. I tried to make the workouts as fun as possible while still including a few of my own personal Achilles’s heels. I believe the difficulty is beginner/intermediate. I wanted to create something accessible but challenging. I am planning on filming previews for all 30 workouts so I can demonstrate the moves more consciously and offer suggestions for modifications. I use equipment in the workouts but I wanted to offer modifications for those who do not have equipment. I really wanted the no equipment modifications to be as challenging as the weighted versions. That is not easy to achieve for every exercise but that’s the goal! I also want to present low impact options baring in mind that some people have joint issues and baring in mind that some people have noise restrictions.

I attempted to film the preview for the first workout. The filming didn’t go great. I am a lot shyer than I expected lol See I know what I want to say and what I want to achieve with this but when the camera is on I just sort of blank out. I was hyperventilating before I even started moving around! It wasn’t the exercises themselves that were giving me trouble it was the socializing with the camera. I am also going to have to film in a larger room which means dragging all my equipment upstairs. I prefer being headless in a video but you can’t see what I am doing above the shoulders when standing, so the yoga room is a no go. I haven’t decided what I will do if I ever successfully manage to film these previews. I haven’t decided if I will film a full length workout video. The draw of a full length video is having the benefit of a carefully constructed routine (the preview would give access to the full routine) and the entertainment value of an engaging trainer. My social anxiety covers up much of my personality. Could be that after filming 30 previews I will loosen up. Could be that I just AM painfully awkward!

Funny when I did the test for my Pilate’s certification I was less awkward than I am alone in a room lol I mean I have taught real life classes with real life people why is this camera thing so uncomfortable?


Random Happenings

I have written 15 workouts so far. I have mixed feelings about it. On the one hand I have done a tremendous amount of work on the other I have to do the same amount of work again if not more. I am too tired to even contemplate a run through or a sneak peak at the moment.


I went to the doctor today to have my moles looked at. Just a general check there was nothing particular about any of them. I have never had my moles looked at before but I read recently that faired-skinned people with freckles and reddish hair have a 50% chance of getting skin cancer. I definitely tick all the boxes for the high-risk category. I wear sunscreen and avoid peak hours whenever possible but still it just seemed responsible somehow. He said they all looked fine and asked me if I wanted to remove one on my back. Most of my moles are pretty small and inconspicuous but I did have a surface mole on my back that was larger. I have always hated this mole because its ugly and it is prone to accidents so naturally I said yes! The process was very easy actually and took no time at all. He gave me local anesthetic which felt like a small needle going into the skin no big deal. I didn’t feel anything when he removed the mole and it only took a few seconds. I do, however, feel a bit queasy from the anesthetic.


After my appointment I decided to get lunch because I was hungry and figured it might help things settle. I had a vegetarian lasagna at a cute little cafe and it was delicious! I never think about eating alone until hours after the fact. When I am in the restaurant I am hungry and nothing else seems to register to my brain, I don’t even see the other customers. I probably wouldn’t even see them if they sat down and had a conversation with me. I know some people hate eating alone and they would never do so in public but eating alone is well eating and I love eating lol


Tides of Numenera arrived in the mail yesterday. I have been waiting for 3 years and now it is here! I have played the Beta but still this is very exciting news for me, who seems to be in desperate need of a nap. The mailman managed to fit this rather large package into our mailbox. I spend quite a lot of time trying to figure out how to remove packages from our mailbox, packages that are very nearly the same size as the mailbox itself. We have a standard Swedish mailbox the type you see outside of the city but the mailman recently suggested to my husband that we should buy a larger mailbox. I can just see us with a mailbox the size of a refrigerator and our mailman carefully folding sofas into it.

Corduroy Pants Are Awesome

My workout today was long but quite fun XD I did Burpees instead of Ninja Tuck Jumps. I did step ups instead of jumping up on a box. I did the stacked feet pushup in full form yay! I also did regular pushups for another set but it was still mostly knee pushups. I did Mountain Climbers mixed with Plank punches instead of Mountain Climbers with the roll. I did some substitutes for the Dip Station, since I don’t own a Dip Station.

Yesterday Sam and I were out and about. I bought a pair of exercise shorts which I quite like and a set of Pilates Bands. At the 2nd hand store I bought a chair for my desk, 1 pair of jeans, and 1 pair of purple corduroy pants. I love corduroy pants and they were super cheap because no one else love corduroy pants XD Sam bought some socks, t-shirts and a comfy pair of pants and we bought some pots for the herbs we are supposedly growing this year. Isadora wants to grow spinach because it is here favorite veg XD I also bought Isadora a pair of jeans. We had fun with our date time!

Zero to Hero Day 1


I like to keep my primary blog centered around my creative endeavors so I decided to do the Zero to Hero challenge here at my secondary site. That is the first reason, the second reason is that the readers of Mindlovemisery likely have a good idea of who I am through my work and our ongoing correspondence. For me there is no greater challenge than the summation of my essence in a few hastily contrived paragraphs. I could list my characteristics (which I will do) but the adjectives are endless and oft times contradictory. I have my ideal version of self, my villainized version of self, and the more meat and potatoes version of self which tends itself toward caricature. I am easily discouraged and overwhelmed, impatient, obstinate, insecure, sarcastic even when sincere and perhaps especially then (something in my voice quality), naive, grumpy, directionally impaired, spacey, reserved, impulsive, inappropriate, eccentric, friendly but aloof, abstract, creative, open, introspective, easily distracted, awkward, clumsy, open-minded, philosophical, moody, silly, superstitious, innocent and yet rather perverted simultaneously, forgetful, shy, melancholic, contradictory, intense, obsessive, unique etc.

The most common compliments I receive are on my

Writing (particularly imagery)







Natural fangs


Porcelain skin





Willingness to do the jobs no one else will do

The way I walk in high heels (it is absolutely barbaric but undeniably hilarious)

Willingness to participate in random acts of song and dance

Sense of humor


Most common criticisms

Bad memory

Poor attention span

Lack of coordination

Selfishness (I take time for myself if I need it and I say no when I am unable and/or unwilling to perform a task one of my most envied and hated characteristics!)

Poor social skills

Poor spatial skills


Poor math skills


Tendency to exaggerate when I am really upset

Lack of motivation

Frequent illness

Insensitivity (I am not so much insensitive as my poor social skills sometimes make me seem staccato)

Oversized clothing


A very abridged list of likes

  • Reading
  • Writing
  • Planescape Torment
  • Medical documentaries
  • Biographies
  • American Horror Story
  • Paranormal mysteries (I get scared easily though)
  • Music (grunge, 90s, oldies, alternative, rock, punk, industrial, indie, folk rock etc.)
  • Japanese food
  • Black and white photography
  • Blogging
  • Role-playing
  • Sylvia Plath, Jim Carroll, Arthur Rimbaud (inspiration)
  • Cult Films
  • Martial Art Films
  • Philosophy
  • Anime
  • Exercise
  • Ballet and gymnastics (watching)
  • Ted Talks
  • Walking/hiking
  • Museums and movies

I have not listed my favorite books and all my favorite authors but I do have a Goodreads page if you are interested.

What do I blog about?

  • Social Anxiety
  • Epilepsy
  • Philosophy
  • Depression/Mental Illness
  • Poetry
  • Psychology and therapy
  • Life
  • Love
  • Trauma
  • Nature
  • Photography (at least I hope to post some photos!)
  • Fitness
  • Dreams
  • Inspiration

Why I blog?

  • Organization (the blog provides a structure that I am simply unable to emulate/maintain with a diary written or electronic)
  • Discipline (knowing that I will publish motivates me to finish my work, having a blog also motivates me to write every day)
  • To meet people with common interests
  • It’s cathartic
  • To bring awareness to certain issues such as child abuse
  • Self-awareness and human psychology
  • To improve my social skills
  • To promote talented individuals which I do primarily by hosting a prompt and with Twitter

What I hope to accomplish with my blog?

This answer can be deduced in part from the above section. But seriously my blog is the first step toward world domination. I hope that it will inspire others (hasten the tedious process of acquiring minions) and provide a haven for other misfits.